|Nov. 21st, 2005 09:37 pm|
Hey everybody--- wow I haven't updated in like forever in a day. Last time I updated a really kewl quiz that i stole from Jordan. Go Me Im kewl :) School has been going ok... no big deal. I mean it's 'high' school. Really there's more freedom at Carver, but at Carver they really didn't care what u did as long as u didn't get a referral or something like that. But SHS you D-hall for every little friggin thing. But I haven't gotten d-hall yet. So-- yeah i hope i don't get it at all. Anyway moving on...
Okay-- have you ever felt like everybody is just annoyed or just like pissed off at you in some way or another. I mean like they can still joke around with you or w/e but on the inside they are just like boiling mad or they're just thinking in their mind get the f--k away from me. Ya know. Okay maybe you don't, but that's how i've been feeling lately actually last week to be exact. I don't know if it's me (which it probably is) b/c im actually starting to get annoyed with myself. I just feel like if I fall off a big cliff then all my 'problems' will be solved. Im not suicidal. But at the same time there are a lot of emotions and feelings going through me. There are still times like I think about different situations and I just think if I could get that time back I would do such/such differently. And then there are times when I just wanna say f--k it. This is not worth it. It's like .. nvr. mind I just lost my train of thought. But idk-- I don't if it's me my hormones if im insecure or WHAT?
Anyway that's enough 'depressingness' don't you all agree. I can't wait til YIG that's gonna be a whole lotta fun. At least I hope. Jordan is my bill partner b/c she is soooo damn cool. Aighty well just wanted to update-- give me a shout out. Love all my friends/family-- MWAH
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